To think of my task is chilling
To know I was carefully building the mask
I was wearing for two years. swearing I`d tear it off
I`ve sat in the dark explaining to myself
that I`m straining too hard for feelings I ought to find easily
Called myself Jezebel. I don`t believe

Before I say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my heart
Family is family. don`t let this tear us apart

You lie there. an innocent baby
I feel like the thief who is raiding your home
entering and breaking and taking in every room
I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the embers still glow
But I`m a shadow. I`m only a bed of blackened coal
Call myself Jezebel for wanting to leave

I`m not saying I`m replacing love for some other word
to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you
I`m just saying we`ve mistaken one for thousands of words
And for that mistake. I`ve caused you such pain that I damn that word
I`ve no more ways to hide that I`m a desolate and empty. hollow place inside

I`m not saying I`m replacing love for some other word
to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you
I`m not saying love`s a plaything
No. it`s a powerful word
inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you
How I wish that we never had tried to be man and his wife
to weave our lives into a blindfold over both our eyes